I met a girl at a party, we got on really well. Another friend had warned me about her, said she was kind of trouble. But i was happy to be getting attention and she was really beautiful. We had a little snog and then she asked me if I wanted to go outside. I must have been really young, like 19 or something.
We went outside to the bushes alongside a main road. We were having a snog and she took her trousers and her pants off and she was straddling me trying to get at my cock. I said I didn't have a condom and asked her if she had one. She said no, then told me not to worry about it and she carried on trying to get my cock out. I thought had she not heard me, or not understood me? I didn't think at the time that she was trying to have sex with me without my consent. I put my hand on it and said that I didn't want to, not without a condom. I found it hard to say no. I think it was probably my age and I think it's hard for most people that age to stand by what they want in the face of someone they like.
She got really upset and started shouting at me. She grabbed her clothes and stormed out the bushes. She got back to the party and started shouting about me that i had tried to rape her. I froze and totally panicked - proper frozen with fear and I didn't know what to say. There were loads of people staring. Then a mutual friend came out, asked me what the hell I'd done. I said I had no idea and that I didn't know what was going on. Then my friend suddenly softened, she said this this had happened before. That was reassuring. And everyone heard our mutual friend saying she does this all the time and to just ignore her.
I have no idea what she'd been through that triggered her like that. Maybe she had felt embarrassed and ashamed that she had pushed me to have sex and that's why she did it. But then what if something had happened? Then no one would believe her.
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